CHANGES

My life has changed so much in the last month. One of the biggest changes happened this past Monday when my baby started full day kindergarten. I have been a stay-at-home mom for the past decade and suddenly I am alone. I know a part of me has been anticipating this moment, the chance to create art full time and the opportunity to go after my dreams.  It is exciting all the ideas and goals I have for myself but at the same time I am missing my little girl desperately. I was so used to having both my children with me every day during the summer, the laughing, the yelling, the constant noise and talking and now it is quiet. Don’t get me wrong I love the quiet but it still feels a little strange. It is amazing how one minute you are holding a tiny little baby and the next you are watching your little girl get on the school bus. Today is the last day of school for the week and I am so excited to spend the day with them tomorrow, I have missed them so much!!!

 Along with both of my children starting school and me getting to start creating full time the prospect of our family moving in the next year is starting to become a reality. My husband was put in charge of a new division of his company that is out of Pennsylvania. He now spends almost his whole week in Virginia and Maryland. I am so proud of him. He loves his career and has advanced quite far in his company in the last year. The idea of moving away is exciting and scary. I am nervous about taking our children away from their friends and I am going to miss being so close to our family. I will not miss our house however we are rapidly outgrowing it but I will miss my yard and flowers and the friends I have made, but at the same time we get to start fresh. We get to buy a new house and get to choose where we want to live and that is really exciting! The biggest downside to everything that is happening is that I miss my husband so much. Last week he was gone the whole week, I miss him, the kids miss him, it has really changed the dynamic of the house. It is hard not knowing where we are going to be or what other changes might happen in the next year. It always feels like there is a question mark following me around. I feel like I am in Dr. Seuss’s book, Oh The Places You’ll Go, "All alone! Whether you like it or not, alone is something you'll be quite a lot" Dr. Seuss.